Whirlwinds

This day has been a whirlwind of a day.  As I type that I remembered I got to see a whirlwind today.  Hm, was that a foreshadowing of the day?

I feel a little emotionally tired right now.  I will not say emotionally drained as I feel nothing like I have at times, but still very emotionally tired.  Blah.  Numb, no, not numb.  Just here.  Not sure what I feel.  I had to face some disappointment today from someone I had been depending on lately.  It reminds me that we are human and we will disappoint.  My heart breaks for a couple of people tonight.  I really don't know what to feel for them.  I have went back to a place today in my life that I forget about at times, and am thankful to have moved past it.  I know it is a weak area for me though and I know that Satan likes to bring things to the forefront that we like to push to the back, or maybe even bury.  God used it though.  I think anyway.  He seemed to have.  Regardless, it is not for me to know, only for me to be obedient in the direction He leads.

It was an up and down kind of day.  Disappointments.  Friendships.  Broken hearts.  Love.  Death. Laughter.  Exhaustion.  Hope.  It's been a whirlwind of a day.  Aside from seeing people hurt and aside from being hurt, I had some positive things come up as well.  My heart was outweighed at times with the heaviness, but there is light to shine through.  I left my wallet at a store yesterday afternoon and one of the guys working found it outside in a cart.  He took it back in and the store put it away for me.  Everything, even cash, was still there.  It brings me hope seeing that there are still honest people in the world.  I found a phone this weekend and we have been able to locate the owner.  He lives out of state, but will be getting in touch with a family member from the area and it will get returned to him.  That's always nice.  I had a great visit with two of my closest friends today.  One this morning on our run/walk, the other I got to eat supper with her and her family tonight.  One had to pay for my lunch, because it was there I discovered the missing wallet.  Thankful for friends and getting to share joys and sorrows with them.  I even got to visit with a third awesome lady today!  We vented, but with the day the venting was needed.  She is a positive lady in my life and someone I hold dear to me.  I don't get to visit with her often, but always am blessed when I do.  I pray God will bless her with rest and enjoyment very soon.

I am thankful today God has given me great friends, health, fitness level, opportunity, a job I love and much more.  He has blessed me beyond measure, and well beyond anything I could ever deserve.

A whirlwind of a day.  This morning as I ran in 70 degree weather in November, thinking how hot it was and how crazy that only a few days ago I was freezing, I was in the middle of a whirlwind.  The middle.  Interesting to me as well as I have seen them, but never been in one.  I have chased them, but never caught one.  I was running down the road and a wind grabbed leaves that had fallen to the ground in this changing of the seasons.  The leaves whirled around me and caught me by surprise.  It took me to being a kid and how I always wanted to be in one of those.  I think my friend next to me said something about that being odd, or weird or something.  I felt a sense of joy in it and didn't really hear her exact words.  I agreed and smiled enjoying that split moment.  The whirlwind of A day I have experienced leaves me feeling tired.  The whirlwind of THE day left me with a smile.  It reminds me that God is in everything.  He should be the center of our lives.  When He is, there is a peace.  Even tired, I feel peaceful.  Yes.  Peaceful, that is the word I was searching for earlier.  I kept trying to go to the other end of the spectrum, but the answer is the feeling of peace felt when God is the center of everything.  I am thankful that God is the center.  Without Him I would be numb.  With Him I am just at peace in the whirlwind.

Do You Know My Friend?

I had a conversation the other day with someone that I had always felt was not a Christian.  I know it is not my place to judge that.  I do.  I also know that we are to live our lives as The Bible tells us to so that others may see God within us.  We may be the only Bible some people read and so it is up to us to be sure and live our lives in a way that is pleasing to God and can share His love and truths with others.  Anyway, back to the point.  This person and I had a conversation.  As I was driving home I remember thinking about how nice that was to see that she believed in God.  I really respect this lady and think a lot of her so of course I want her to follow truth.  It quietly and quickly came to my realization that a lot of people believe in God, serve God, live for God, heal in God's name, etc.  The bible tells us this.  Matthew 7:22 says "On that day many will say to me, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and cast out demons in your name, and do many mighty works in your name?’"  You see believing in God is not enough.  That is not what will get you to heaven.  John 14:6 says "Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."  If there is no relationship with the Lord and Savior Jesus Christ then there is no heaven in our future.  We must know Jesus and trust in Him as our Lord and Savior.  I can't imagine living life without Jesus in it.  My Heavenly Father is the Almighty!  He is powerful and strong and omnipotent.  And I am thankful for His mercy and grace.  And in that, I am thankful for His Son, the Savior, Jesus.  That Jesus is standing in the gap for me.  Without that, I would deserve nothing but hell.  Death.  Romans 6:23 says "For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord." 

Do you know my friend Jesus?  I sure do hope so.  He is pretty amazing.  He is the best friend I could ever ask for.  He died for me, laid His life down that I might have life.  An abundant life.  And, WOW, has He blessed this poor, pathetic life.  He has given me so many opportunities and so much love! 

No excuses

We all have excuses.  We can all come up with excuses to do things that are not really something we want very badly or just something we don't think we will be successful doing.  I hear lots of excuses in my career.  Excuses as to why a student cannot come to class, or did not do their homework, or just didn't get the work turned in.  I hear excuses as to why a person cannot eat healthy or workout.  My reply...we all have excuses.  I admit that I need to pay more attention to this as well, as God gently reminds me, and sometimes very strongly reminds me, that we all have excuses.  I tend to fall short many times at not holding up my end of things for Him.  I fail Him daily and fall short.  I pray that I will be better about this.  One are weighing on me where I fall short recently is I had a bible study lingering over me for years and I finally got started on it a week ago tomorrow when I stayed home sick from work.  It has five days of "homework" to complete and then the next lesson.  I am only half way through the first homework.  I should have everything completed for this week. This is an area of my life that I need to commit to and do better on.

The Merriam-Webster dictionary defines commitment as "a promise to give or do something", "a promise to be loyal to someone or something", or "the attitude of someone who works very hard to do or support something".  I have to say this is a word that maybe if I use with my bible study I would do better at honoring it.  Honor...well, now that's just another word that has importance.  There are a lot of definitions of honor, but the one that stands out most to me is "one's word given as a guarantee of performance".

The whole beginning of this blog was about fitness, but as usual God turns it into something more.

So, where did this all start.  The other day I had a great, blessing of a day.  It was day nine of my commitment to Sophia.  I came home late, started supper, and decided to jump in the shower while supper finished cooking. I had already been asked earlier why I had to walk or run at least a mile for Sophia still after having hiked about four or five through the woods that day.  Well, those miles were not about exercise, or Sophia, those miles were coming in and out of the woods to try and provide food for my family.  Yes, I hunt.  Not for a trophy, but for food.  We eat everything we kill, and are very diligent in remaining legal with all our hunting.  I say all this to say, I was tired.  It had been a long day, had gotten up really early and put a lot of strain on my body already.  As I was getting ready to shower and call it a day, I remember Sweet Sophia.  I still had to do her mile for her.  I could have easily done a quarter of a mile.  I could have even easier continued with my plans and went to bed and just wrote it off for another day, and another thing I didn't get completed.  But I didn't. We all have excuses, I just decided to not make one.  I decided to honor the commitment that I made to this little girl and her family.  I am proud to say I did.  I went outside and again made laps around my house.  I am sure the neighbors and vehicles driving by thought I was a crazy person.  But I didn't care.  It was a commitment I made and I was going to honor it.  I felt good about it.

I could have made an excuse, or I could have made time.  I made time.  Everything you spend time on in life is a choice.  You choose to honor your commitments, or not.  You choose to honor your role as a parent, or not.  As an employee or not.  As a friend or not.  You decide whether you will take care of yourself or not. You have 24 hours in a day...and you choose how you spend it.  Will you honor God in your decisions or will you try to hide your face from Him?  Will you take care of the things God has blessed you with, or will you turn your back on His plan for your life?  What will make an excuse, or will you make time?

"But Moses said to the Lord, “Oh, my Lord, I am not eloquent, either in the past or since you have spoken to your servant, but I am slow of speech and of tongue.” Then the Lordsaid to him, “Who has made man's mouth? Who makes him mute, or deaf, or seeing, or blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now therefore go, and I will be with your mouth and teach you what you shall speak.” But he said, “Oh, my Lord, please send someone else.” Then the anger of the Lord was kindled against Moses and he said, “Is there not Aaron, your brother, the Levite? I know that he can speak well. Behold, he is coming out to meet you, and when he sees you, he will be glad in his heart."  Exodus 4:10-14

"Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body." 1 Corinthians 6:19-20