Seriously? November?

Geesh!  I can't believe it is November already!  I wrote my last post over a month ago.  I really don't know where time goes. 

So, I have made it to my 18 mile run.  And completely am being a slacker this week for some reason.  I guess as it turns off cold I am snuggling up in my warm bed more often.  Plus, schedules with my running buddies hasn't went great either. 

So, what do I have left?  I have this weekend which may be a low weekend.  I am running a four mile trail race with my husband.  I am thankful that he likes to run trails.  I won't get him further than four miles, but that's 45 minutes of time together doing something I love.  I am very proud of him.  Then I have a ten mile training run the next weekend.  The following I am running double half marathons (one Saturday morning and one Sunday morning).  I figure running 26.2 in a 24 hour period will be good training for me.  From there weekends will be: 10, 20, 12, 8, then it's race day.  Wow...race day is that close.  The 20 scares me as it is the weekend most of my running buddies will be in Memphis running the St. Judes races.  I have lots of running buddies though, so thinking I can get some to split the mileage up with me if I need to.  Or maybe new buddies will run with me.

So, 3 Bridges is my first marathon.  The race director suffered cardiac arrest last weekend at mile 19 of a race.  It blows my mind.  He is still in cardiac ICU, which is scary.  They all say he is a fighter.  I say my God is bigger than what is going on with him.  And I know that. Faith of a mustard seed right?  I also know that sometimes when our faith isn't strong enough, our christian brothers' and sisters' faith can be.

I have though a lot lately about our loved  ones.  We really never know when we may never see them again. I think of my grandmother often.  How much I miss her and how many regrets I have concerning the massive amount of time I wasted.  Time being hateful as a teenager.  Time I was living in a way that went against all she taught me to be. Time that I avoided because it was easier than seeing her suffer trying to do for me.  Time I should have been by her side, holding her hand, praying for her, telling her that I love her.  I am so thankful that my loved ones that are now in the hospital and members of the running community that are in the hospital, all have loved ones at their side.  My husband has an aunt that I always say hugs me how my grandmother used to hug me.  I am thankful for her in my life.  She is facing surgery soon.  I will do all I can to be there for her.  To be at her husband's side while he waits.  To be there to hug her and tell her that I love her.  I can't get back the time that I lost with my grandmother, but I can gain time with all my loved ones that are still here.  While I am still here.